9-12 july - KL. was all good.enjoyed myself.all the merepekness.shall not elaborate.too mls to do so.
rachelle came back the same day same time as us.just that diff terminal.haha
met up with her the next day.i woke up late AS USUAL.whats new right.until my CA have to msg me."so what is ur problem today?" sarcastic sia! huhu..
had sakae sushi for lunch.then hang around at rach's plc with tashy,ammar n malik.
we a indo ghost story titled"jamu ne di gendong.something like that luh.anyhow only.then malik keep making fun of their visual effect.ahaha..its like too much effect already till its not scary already.tasha had to leave first.so tasha n ammar left.me n malik continue watching then around 8plus 9 we cabbed homw tgr.
school has been mundane for me...
getting sick of it.
module suck big time.
and i get so irritated with stuff easily nowadays.
trying my best to be low-pro as possible not that i am not.but just trying to be as low as possible.
i bet there is something wrong with me man.
like seriously.
i feel that my emotions are starting to get out of control.
can u imagine the feeling of something not important being snatched away from u?
altho it is not important,but u still want it.
and when u cant have it.u start to get so irritated with urself that at times u just feel like banging table n chairs man!! swear.
ok just merely thinking of it is enough to kill millions of cells.grrrrrrrrr.
ok! off this subject.getting bit too sensitive.
ouhh ya.
anybody have any idea on how to motivate me to go school everyday?
like seriously.i cant afford to fail my upcoming exams.
i need somebody competitive to compete with.
even tho ur grades are better than mine,but still not good enough to mottivate me to compete with anybody sia! hey im not being arrogant but its the fact.
grades good doesnt = to competitive.
i was just talking to nursiah the other night that i lose somebody competitive.
at least last year i have hawe, fid n her.this year hawe only.
like what she said.when u are competitive with ur classmates,they may not take it in a good wayy.they might think ur arrogant.
actly i dont really give a damn like honestly.
as long as u are competitive enough to motivate me to study to get good grades,i dont fucking give a damn what u think of me...IN RANDOM
i dont hate my classmates.all are my happy pills.except that to some i may be seemed as arrogant/kerek coz i dont smile or talk to any of them.
.this happens like so god know how many times that people start talking behind my back that i fucking act.even at work.just becoz i dont smile at them or talk to them.i just have to tell u.this is the way i am.no matter how i try.i cant change it.its like a habit already.i dont start the talking.thats who i am.i like to mirror.i will only acknowledge u after u acknowledge me..i have a problem with my ego n pride.something that grows within me.
.and the reason why i hang out with the malays in general is becoz i find them easier to relate to.they are more open to ideas n can take my crap.hahah.chinese are abit narrow minded.they dont take jokes as jokes.thay like to take it seriously. hey im not being racist here.im chinese.
and i am not talking about any of my classmates ok.im speaking in general.most of my friend from sec school till now are mostly malays.my non malay friends also hang around the malays tts why.it revolves around.
EHH ALL THIS ARE LIKE SOO DAMN SUPER RANDOM LUH..SORRY EHH.HAHA\
i was like doing some thinking.
ok bye!