my mum is driving me nuts....

she is just so unreasonable sumtimes.
maybe i shouldnt even talk to her to prevent further argument.
or maybe she shouldnt even see my face.
god knows when was the last time we even have a heart to heart talk!
gosh! we both can never agree with anything together.
she doesnt communicate with us.dont do what we like to do.
doesnt think like how we do.c'mon luh mum.what ERA is this already.
you have to learn to accept teenager's life this way.not like last time.
everything is fast forwarding.learn to live in the modern time.
whenever we want to go sumwhere.she will make excuses.
like today the whether so hot.cannot go another day meh.
im so tired to go.lazy to go out today and stuff..
when was the last time we hang around as a family.
i guess that is the reason why i dont like to stay at home.
i would rather hang around with my friends.BUT,if im not at home also she make noise.
say what luh everytime go out.dont know how to come back.
of course luh this type of house who want to come home sia.stay at home do what?
eat sleep watch Tv surf the net? i would rather spend my life on sumthing meaningful.
i would make full use of it. while i can...at home also she make noise.
say what luh.only know how to stay at home and do nothing...
WTF sia.seriously i dont understand her.
i seriously dont know what she want.
everyone in this fucking house can drive me nuts i swear!
bloody piece of shitt!!!
malas nak layan!!! geram nye!!! EEeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR...

yes..to be there whenever you need them only.

maybe i should go back to what i've been doing before this year starts.
i havent had a good rest ever since.i've been busy ever since.
too busy i should say..
giving up every other friends and things just for something else,somebody else.
people have been telling me that i've drifted away...and i do notice it only now
like far far away.....
maybe i should do some balancing i guess..too much of something is not good.
i've spend too much time on .........................................................................
so i shall now devote my time to work and home and necessary outings.
my Bs and close friends.you know who,what,when why.i mean....

ouhh...my friends.
let me tell you this.
friends can come and go as they like.
To some,friends are like a must be there thingy when you needed them.

i just wish i could turn back time....skip those times where i wish it wouldnt happen,wish i wouldnt regret.but oh wells.what's done is done.

i guess im just being too sensitive.i should do some reflecting on myself.like seriously.
i should grow up and not act like a kid or a child or whatever you call anymore.
in some's eye, i may seem like a different person now.something about me has change.
and i dont think i have grown more mature when i should be.coz im like 20 this year?
fuck its make me sound so old now.

and this is for whoever you think you are....

do you think i am being sensitive?
.maybe its because of the things i said or my expression shown makes you think that i am.
now,now...
let me tell you this.
i dont take things to heart.
i dont mean what i said.
because if i do,all those words you said.would have stab me deep like a million times i swear.
you wouldnt even be my friend in the first place get it?
i choose friends.....
BUT, i dont choose the right friends sometimes.
friends dont MAKE USE.

maybe after reading,YOU MAY TERASE.....
but.its just random.i dont pin point... :)
IM JUST EXPRESSING MYSELF ON WHAT I THINK. :)

although there has been some ups and downs.but stilllllllllll
i just wish.i could literally delete what i dont wish to remember from my mind right now.

REMEMBER:YOU made me think of YOU this way :)


accept me FLAWS AND ALL....
Ints you remind me =)

im back again..to my loyal fans!!!
awwww dont be upset...

due to overwhelming response of asking me to update...here i am..
LOOOL....

well....
i've been having time of my life..loool...enjoying...
there is soo much to say..that i dont know where to start...
like sentosa..which we enjoy lotsa.
and there's lepaking...everyday.everywhere under the sun,moon.tree..lool!!!
seriously i swear i dont know where to start...too much and too lazy to talk about it..

ouhh yeahh... reunion si bo!! hahaha
we had a catch up the other day...
malik,tasha,kama,me,hady,fadli,gabie,ammar's there too(tash's)
not bad...had talks.ballgazing with hady... ;)
public doesnt know...
but the day before it was hady's b'dae!!.... 8th jan!!! i remember ok hady!
we hang out..forced me to watch the stupid ong bak 2....liar!!! say got love story all...stupid sia.
stupid fighting show..cheat my feeling sia..pdhl is some parently love and puppy love...KNN..
i knw luh still love what right...
then we went to spinelli's to sit...hang around and decided to go bali house...and that's where the funny part begin...we had mini barrel the tower of heineken....playing true or dare and some shit stuff...
hady kept drinking and got drunk.drunk rabak gile babs.should see his face and the video sia..damn funny.i will upload when im not lazy...and then we took the cab.the moment he step out of the cab i swear he turn into a merlion.hahah..he vomited in the middle of the road.take 2 step and roar again..hahaha...yes its that bad...
the next day he said he's all good.another round ahh amcm....no thanks.haha

so we just hang around in town and stuff...we literally see each other everyday like kama,malik,hady.tasha,yiwen....and i swear i can die sia.arguing with kamarulzaman and isenky malik about nothing everyday..tired anot? i tired sia.

playing true or dare everyday....truth table with tasha..gosh....bored already...no more truth to tell..i think i still have some truth not told yet.and dont intend to .hahah

ouhh we are going ot the zoo!!!! this sat...excited sia..bring my boys to meet their relatives.hahahahah....

too bad tash you cant join us.we will make it up to you...meanwhile..enjoy ur trip to states..
carmen will take over ur place for the time being...lool...

will update soon i guess..da penat uh..it took me donkey years to finish an entry.stupps!

i am really really tired...
Sick & tired of everything..
really driving me nuts i swear!!!

what must i do to make you happy??
I am unexpressive...
so please just tell me..

if you cant tell me,
please just let me live in my own world.
please just leave me alone.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2009!!!

its my first blog of the year man...

well..spent my first few mins or should i say hours with my beloved friends...

before that..we had other unsuccessful plans on how to spend new year...
we had booking of hotel heading down to clubs,going to the siloso beach party...
well...non of them worked out...so fucked it..we look for our own fun...
and there we are hanging out with my friends for the new year...which was good...

i met the rest at Tong Seng coffeshop at bugis...went to marina,the guys went for some pool session.while me and syqin went window shopping..but in the end syqin bought something..
meet yiwen after her work...we went to sit outside Mac's there is a grass patch.we just sit there and lepak..wait for tiara there..in the end we decided that we want to go up to te express way for a better view..indeed we have..instead of going to the side where lots of ppl go,we went to the other side which i think makes no difference still good view.and lesser ppl.we dont have to squeeze around..

we just hang around there lepak..take a whole lot of pictures..but i dont know where it went..only manage to get some from ayub's flickr...ayub!! where is the rest??

talking crazy..acting crazy..feeling crazy..yeah man..we had fun..
and then..then time has come...
its 1st jan 2009....
yeah...we were shouting like crazy...watching the magnificent fireworks when a lorry loaded with indian nationals blocked our view..we shouted like crazy asking them to move..signal them and stuff..but they didnt get us..they were still smiling at us as if we were wishing them like that.. lmao...
well we waiting for coast to clear before we leave the expressway..
we went down to flyers to slack...take some pcitures again...then we left..
took the last train home at 2..reach home ard 4...in beween were seating at the playground area watching some magic tricks..hahaha.....done by sanjay's friend...his friend is terrible man..the whole private estate around the playground is drown by his laughter..terrible...

well tts about it...