limitless i should say..


is it me or is it you??

im soo tired.really tired..
so tired of listening to stupid shits that happen all the time..
why cant you just let it go..let it go....
what is it in me that is telling me to stop..
i tried to..but i cant control myself...
i tried to look at it from a different angle.but it still looks the same to me..
you are nothing special..really...so why??

nightmares is starting to get frequent
i so hate you for that..
i keept telling myself..
tml will be something new..
but im still stuck at square one..
i when can i start to have my first step again...
maybe leaving for a while would be a good thing..
i can use that time to freshen myself up
freshen people around me
i would have a peaceful time on my own to think and reflect on myself
on what have i done to other and what others have done to me since day 1
let them forget me.
let me forget them
coz whoever you are.ur a nightmare to me
you turn my life upside down..twist and turn it,then you crush it...
how terrible can that be
let me start a new life again..
i caused too much hurt and pain..

most of them are just passer-by(s) in my life..
10 year down the road..or maybe 5 years down the road
will you see yourself talking to me again..hanging out like we used to??
acquaintance i should say.

you stayed in my life for so long..but you still dont know the real me..
and you can never know...
and i can never open up to you..
nobody can find the key to unlock this diary in me
not even you..


part of my life has become a past
i can never redeem it back.
but it was all worthwhile.
everything is cherished
but will forget it sooner or later
stupid wishful thinking...

leave now.if not i'll be the one leaving first...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST
BESTEST BESTIE!! YVONNE CHEN YIWEN..
27TH AUGUST....







REMEMBER OUR DATE...



my bestest friend for 7 years...
we've been thru ups and down..
thick and thin..thats why we are where we are today..
no one can or ever will replace her...
ok that sounds so bimbo..but its the truth

ok..this blog is so dead..and boring..
so im here to update...

yooohaaaa!!!

Vietnamese wannabe is back....lol
im back from a 4 days 3 nights trip in vietnam..and it was a blast...
really enjoyed the stay...and now i think i can officially call my self a full-time adviser...
only they know what i mean..right guys..haha...
we had fun,we had joy,we had seasons in the sun...

lets start with the first day......

first day...
i woke up at 4.40 am.get ready...
parents fetched me to the airport..met the rest at burger king..
and i met ramli sarit...lol...tiara's dad...
we check in...its was a 1hr and 35 min flight..
tada!! we reached vietnam...first stop..
to the pagoda...it was ok..not so interesting...
then off to the presidential palace...boring!!!
then we complain hungry..so we went for makan!!
kwn2 its makan time...
ok luh the food..so and so..
then to the war memorial museum...
kena scolded by a mat salleh the whole group...
coz we make too much noise...
you think its funny..you think its funny?
it not a place to have fun.....lol.yeah its our fault actually...
and then to ben tanh market..
only for 1hr 30 mins..bought a wallet thats all...
and then for dinner, we went to the floating restaurant..on board of a ship
acak and alep dance with the apek..hahaha
then we lepak in the guys room...and fell asleep (thou shall not say) :)

2nd day..
we woke up,breakfast
then a 2hrs bus ride to mekong delta..
during the two hours..woohoo..power ahh.. i had to recharge my energy from yesterday..
slept thru it.tada!! we reached mekong delta..
we had a boat ride..was not bad..we go village to village..
went to the village where they make coconut candy..
and there was the floating market..
then we had lunch.. at one of the village.
we had elephant's ear fish..was not bad...
then continue with the boat ride again..
then tada..finish..we went back to the bus..coz was really exhausted..
slept thur the 2hrs again.had to recharge for later war...lol...
we had dinner and back to the hotel...syqin and zura slept so early that night..
me and tiara went around pillow fighting..haha..then we fell asleep

third day..
we woke up late..haha
wake up then saw adelyn face..
wake up! wake up! next time i give you all wake up call..haha
the rest went back to their room to get ready..
we got ready and went down..we were late so no breakfast
but adelyn brought bread for us..thanks ad ;)
we went to cuchi tunnel..aler..go in here and go out there..dah thats it..
went back to city for lunch! at halal restuarant..then nicest of all days..
power sia the lemak..the chilli luh..woooo!!!
then kawan2 its shopping time..this time round its 3 1/2 hrs.. and i didnt get anything
no mood ah to buy..i just wanted a eastpak bag..but only got one design not nice also
so in the end never buy..just follow them only..
after that we went to have dinner...not nice sia...no mood to eat also..
coz everyone boring..
then back to hotel..
we strip alif!!!! hahaha...
then the guy tgh boring..watching super man...
after playing..damn hot sia..i went back to my room then cool my self down..
watch love parade...then tiara came in..we lepak2...
then the guys come and we went shop...
noodles and chips..lepak..watch evan almighty..
then we got bored again..then wanted to buy alcohol..
but acak said..a promise is a promise.hahaha
so he said..ok i dress like that to the shop,you all canot buy alcohol..
so we made a deal..went down..ohh ya,he was wrapped in a blacket from head to toe..
was made to wear the vietnam hat..like far,er that kind..ppl all looking at him
funny sia..laugh at him sumore..
in the end we bought 5 cans of redbull...
6 people drag can by can sia..
you count down..from 1,before you say 2 the drink finish already..
then ayub was like wait wait.before he could say anymore,the drink also finish already..hahaha
funny sia..bloody hell the first drink i drank a little and the redbull went up to my nose..
acak also sia..but luckily luh..coz izaat bloody hell spit in..
after that we thought we could stay up.but we fell asleep...
haahah...bodoh sia...(thou shall not say again)

last day..
we woke up late again...
had to wake up at 4 plus..
went back to our room
get ready..and set for the airport..
bid thien goodbye..board the plane
the rest were asleep except for me tiara and acak
so we went to the back and sit..
talk cock luh..take picture of the outside scenery luh..this and that
we reached singpore at around 12..and parents came to fetch..go home
straight away bathe and tido...

thats all

1 more day to go...and im leaving on a jetplane..
dont know when i'll be back again..lols..
going to vietnam...do you thinks its even educational at all??
when all you could think ever think of is to travel and shop non stop..
i know the best part is that you get to travel with your friend...
cant wait...

well today..as usual..i never turn up again...
woke up late..i think my brother tried to wake me up..but i thought it was a dream..lol..
i only woke up arnd 8 when syqin msg me asking where am i..lol...
ya..im on my bed..travelling..lols
im the kind of person..if i wake up abit late also i lazy want to go sch..
i must wake up xtra early to get ready...haha..

im soo damn bored now luh..dont know what to do..
if you are asking me to study,forget it alright.
coz i never brought that damn book home..
how the hell would i know im not coming to school..

TOPIC CHANGE..
imagine you going to a place where nobody like you..
and its a place where you have to go everyday..
and the people you have to see everyday..
so kesian right...who doesnt wants to have friends to talk to,to have fun with..
i got a knock on my head yesterday..when sombody ask me a question..
i was like ya ahh..why ahh...
but sometimes,its not our fault you see..
different people have different attitude..
they dont know where they go wrong or what have
they done wrong...but..we still have to see...
if we were to tell them and they cant accept it,what can we do right...
im just being random here.. ; )