why do people always remembers the bad things you have done and forgets the good things??

i just wanna make you proud..thats all..but i failed to do so...
not because i never tried but because you dont even bother to notice..
dont even bother to ask...

afraid has become numb...
happy is only with friends...
it slowly leads you to the back of the heart
where you can hear silent weeps every now and then.
keeping all ur feelings inside which you wanted so much
to pour it out to because you trust no one..
the word feelings slowing extinct...
tears just keep rolling down without you noticing for the past years
hiding urself in the dark...
lying to yourself that this phase is over...
where are they when you needed them the most? the question lies..

saying it for a period of time is cool.
saying all the time gets hurt..

its a secret i dont share....


To my dad with love
i miss you...
this marks the tenth year.